Thursday, 4 July 2019

INNOCENT REWARD


A piece by Cee Managa

Mothers usually say they know everything about their kids
But little do they know that they had lost their bouncing little babies (now all grown up) years ago.

It was 4 am…
Well like every other night I couldn’t sleep, doesn't matter how hard I tried
Somehow this is the time when memories crept into my mind……The pain hidden in my heart screams for its freedom because the cage (My Heart) is suffocating it with the tightness; I feel
Childhood was much better when you didn't have to hide your pain. Leave alone, lie about it;
When sharing your pain used to be rewarded with chocolates and love instead of taunts…Life was so simple then
When Mama`s lap and shoulder was a solution to everything. It was and still is.
However, it is we who are not honest enough from our side…
Maybe we lost our innocence in the chaos of life.

Devastated I sat on the couch and broke into tears eagerly waiting for sunrise

Its 7 am …
I yearn for Mamas hug
They have a superpower of calming me down and that’s what I need
Before I lift my hand to knock the door,
The door opened with countless smiles, calling on me as I entered home

Mama: Broken dreams?
Me: Yes Mama... 
Mama: Nothing, which Mamas arms couldn’t heal

Once again, a kid cried on the laps of her mother sharing all her problems
Once again innocence got rewarded.
This time with extra love, extra care and yeah definitely extra food.




Sunday, 17 February 2019

Friday Midnight Noise


 Refuel your soul love; this is going to be a long drive

…Friday Midnight Noise….
I must admit there is nothing louder than overthinking after midnight….
This is me…This might be you…..
It's Friday ….another noisy Friday night…..another Friday of unfading memories…….another Friday of reliving an unforgettable love…hahaha yes  LOVE!!!…why Friday?....coz it all started on a Friday night…to be precise a Friday midnight…..
So let me buckle up coz I know it’s going to be a long noisy Friday night…
As I said it started on a Friday Midnight …
On a certain Friday night was when I was at a peak of happiness ….top floor! Life was good. Life was exciting … just the two of us ….At first, I was a grumpy Monday morning but with time I became a Friday night full of excitement and ready to embrace whatever came my way because of you. I turned out liking you a lot more than I originally planned that’s for sure…You made my dopamine levels go all silly each time I laid eyes on you….
Also
On a Friday night was when I was at a peak of my sadness …I was not happy coz of you... The distance between us widened…no way for us to meet…An opportunity arose for me to forget you… I had to let go coz it wasn’t going to work …I knew the distance was much needed but it was awakening the forgotten grumpy Monday morning in me. I was not ready to go back to Grumpy Monday I knew I had to pick myself up and become a Friday night again this time without you...But can I ….Can I really!!!
Loud are my feelings confused is my soul. Sometimes I wonder if things would have turned out differently if I had just done one thing or said those few words or been a little less like this or a little more like that…..You get! Sometimes I wonder

That’s when the Friday midnight noises started……can I really break up with junk food or am I kidding myself!...
It’s been half a month in this long drive; Let me refuel….



 By 

Cee




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